hmm

i went to a friend's blog site... someone I havent talked to in a while... ( or even thought about, thanks to a certain person who has  captured my attention).... but it was strange seeing this person's blog site.... and he had deleted the blogs he had once written about me.. just one actually that I can remember. i dont know why it bothered me, but it did.  This person is long out of my life. but in a sense, it was sort of nice to look back en temps en temps and see that moment frozen in time(or perhaps it's just the vanity in me enjoying a compliment I could always go back to)and now gone. It's like it was never here at all. strange and ghostly.

it seems like everyone in my life is somewhat transient. It doesnt bother me that he isn't around, though I miss his friendship ( along with a few other people I havent seen in a while somwhat because of that). It does make me wonder though if everything else thats good that comes to me in life will eventually fade away, float away. drift away. I'm just waiting.....